praying and waiting

A few weeks ago I had a dream. I went to bed one evening weighing an important decision. Should I keep the status quo, or, should I make a change in a particular area of my life, even though I knew it would ultimately lead to everything opposite of what I truly want? Deep down I knew what the right decision was, but I had allowed myself to weigh too many factors that should have had no bearing whatsoever. Ultimately, I was treating my situation like I knew better than God. How stupid is that? How could I think that my feelings-based decisions were leading me into a direction God had ordained for me, even though they didn't line up with scripture and molding myself after Jesus?

During a small group setting this morning I found my ladies and I finally taking our masks off. For two semesters, our masks had stayed perfectly poised on our faces, and now, one by one, one truthful revelation after another, they finally began to come down. It was during this breakfast fellowship that one of my sweet friends mentioned God's answer to her in the form of a dream during a tough time in her life. It was inspiring and although I already think highly of her, it also made me realize how important it is for me to listen to God when He is working so hard to show me that He is there, whether I acknowledge his presence or not. During the course of her sharing her story, I immediately began to think about the dream that I had during this recent, selfish/emotion-lead way of thinking and remembered how I woke up after understanding what God wanted me to do. It will be worth it. 

God does a work in us when we invite Him in (this isn't said to mean that we are in control of God, because we are not. It's important to remember that He doesn't need us, we need Him). When we sincerely, and humbly ask Him for help he is always there waiting, but I'm continuing to learn that in order to know what His path is for us, we have to first ask and then wait. I don't mean listen in an audible sense. God doesn't talk to us in that way. I mean read His word and pray. This was the first time while in a "dilemma" that I can remember where I found myself actively listening for God's response to my question. Have I ever asked him for anything before this? Yes. Had I prayed before this? Yes. Absolutely. But I think what was different this time was my posture of prayer. I was completely humble and eager. I didn't pray and keep it moving, hoping that I would just magically know what to do as I moved about my busy day. Instead, I waited. I genuinely sought out that His will would be done.

Isaiah 42:16 says,

I will lead the blind by ways they have not known, along unfamiliar paths I will guide them; I will turn the darkness into light before them and make the rough places smooth. These are the things I will do; I will not forsake them.

What an amazing promise!

He will lead us and teach us His way as we navigate our paths to align them with His.;

He will turn our lives around and make light from darkness;

He promises us of His word; and,

He will never forsake us!

So the next time you find yourself in a dilemma and you need to not only know what to do, but also need to understand why it is what you need to do, give God some quiet time, pray and find answers in His word.