This morning is the first day I can truly say that I awoke with a question on my heart. I could hear myself asking aloud, "How does God forgive?" I rolled over, my four year old's body tossed haphazardly between my husband and I, and grabbed my iPhone to take a peek at my one year bible app. The first part of my daily devotional is copied below,
What? Mind blown! :)
Actively working to better my prayer life, I think this morning I am proving to myself that the more open I am in my faith, the more knowledge I desire. God's word tells us that when we seek him with all our heart, we will find him (Jeremiah 29:13), and as I host my small groups, dig into scripture, and actively work toward truly knowing Jesus, questions such as the one I asked myself this morning tends to be the norm lately.
As somewhat of a new believer, it is sometimes hard for me to fathom His Good News. I mean, I've in no means been perfect, I've sinned, sometimes so great that the only way I was able to forgive myself was while in His Spirit. It is so great to serve a God who is Almighty and All-knowing because through faith, we are able to rest our minds and know that as long as we serve Him and believe on Jesus, even when doubt tries to enter our minds, there is an answer in His word. Ephesians 2:8-9 says, For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith - and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God - not by works, so that no one can boast. What an amazing promise!
So really, I can have moments of doubt when I focus on my flesh and not my faith, but when I truly act faithfully, immerse myself in His word and accept His gift that I haven't and could have never earned, I am quickly reminded that as believers we are so lucky to have such a good Father.
My birthday is today, so here's to 32, continued growth, discernment and wisdom in Christ!